My (almost) 5 year old is one of the most hilarious people I have ever known. Some of the things that come out of his mouth... my gosh. I just have no idea where he gets this from! For example:
Getting up in the morning, we asked him to go potty and get dressed. He replied:
"Ugh! Why do you treat me like a child?"
Sometimes though, the things he says can be hurtful. He's 5. I get that. He likely doesn't mean it. Does he? This kid is so smart, I just have to wonder. Is he old enough to manipulate me?
Last week, we had a rough bedtime one night and he said to me in all seriousness (that a 5 year old can possess), "Mommy. I don't like you. I like the rest of the family. I like my aunts and uncles. Grandmas, Grandpa and Papa. I like daddy. Not you."
Ouch. I know it came from being mad at me about making him go to bed when he didn't want to. He doesn't like to hear the word "no". I tried not to take it personally, but hey, I'm pregnant. Words hurt. Even from my 5 year old.
I know it won't be the first time he says this. I will probably even hear worse things from him as he gets older. Sadly, he does often comment on my changing body. He's made comments about my growing tummy, saying, "Mommy. Your tummy is getting so fat!" I'm not hurt, but it is a reminder of my need to keep things in check and as healthy as possible throughout the rest of my pregnancy. It is a reminder that I will have work to do after this new, precious baby comes to get back the "me" that I worked so hard for these last couple years.
This summer, I have become addicted to the show Extreme Weight Loss. Yeah, it makes me cry. Every week. While my weight has never been that extreme, I was in a place after having Jack that I never thought I would be in and even now that I am pregnant again, I don't want to go back there. There was one woman in particular on the show that made a comment at the beginning of the show about being on "this awesome program where I can eat whatever I want". She opened her pantry and it was entirely labeled in Weight Watchers points. She had been on the program for years. She was around 370 pounds. That is the danger of that program. I thought the same thing when I was on the program, but it is sooooo easy to cheat. There is no REAL accountability. Sure, you weigh in every week, but so what! After awhile, even that doesn't feel like motivation.
YOU CAN'T EAT WHATEVER YOU WANT IF YOU ARE TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT!!!! If all you are eating is chocolate and donuts, is that going to be good for you??? REALLY? Is that real life? Is that the right thing to be telling a food addict? GAH. No. NO NO. Yes, Weight Watchers works for those who are innately self-motivated. Yes, it works when you are tracking EVERY little bite. It works even better when you make healthy, natural food choices over processed crap.
I will likely rejoin Medifast after my pregnancy journey. It worked AND, I indeed kept the weight off.
I am starting to feel better about my image in my pregnancy. At 18 weeks, I am obviously pregnant and not huge pregnant, but cute pregnant. I even got a belly compliment at work the other day saying my pregnant belly was perfect and adorable. I loved hearing that and NEEDED to hear it. I feel good about where I am at. I have gained 10 pounds so far in this pregnancy. I am aware I have about 20 weeks left and will likely gain a pound a week (which is average) which should put my total gain somewhere around 30 pounds. Average. I can accept that. Luckily, I haven't had that overwhelming hunger and food pretty much still tastes like crap. I wish every day for things to get better with my nausea. It actually feels like it is getting worse? What the hell?
Baby's movements get stronger and more regular every day and I LOVE it. I can hardly concentrate when I feel baby and pretty much stop everything just to feel it and treasure it. I can't wait for my husband and Jack to feel the baby kicking too.
We are still on pins and needles for my anatomy scan. August 8th, this Thursday, is the big day we find out whether we are having a boy or a girl! My in-laws somehow think we know and are keeping the information from them. We passed on having the Harmony genetic test done after getting excellent results from the NT, so NO, we DO NOT KNOW THE GENDER yet. Cross my heart. You will all know when I know! We do have names. Those will be kept a secret until the day this precious one arrives.
Here's to pretty much being halfway done (because we know babies from my tummy like to make early appearances).
I need to stop wearing black on my belly photo days! LOL
And yes. I am a week behind. I'm 19 weeks today. Oh boy. I need a vacation.