I'll start out by saying, my 2012 wasn't without some sadness. Most recently, I had to bid a final farewell to my fertility and had any hopes of a 2nd baby dashed away in what seems like just a moment. I shed many tears, I went through my anger over my situation and now... I simply accept it. I have never been one to dwell on my hardships and I am not about to start now!
The rest of 2012 was beyond amazing for me. Here are the highlights and my 2013 resolutions:
1. I MADE MY GOAL WEIGHT!! This... there are no words. This achievement is one that I had dreamed about for years. I have Medifast to thank for getting me there and am PROUD PROUD PROUD to say I have been in maintenance for 6 months without any significant gains. Obviously my top resolution for 2013 is to keep the weight off which as I have learned is no easy task. But to those who didn't believe I could do it? Or thought that I would gain it all back? THIS:
2. I am a full-fledged RUNNER. I am actually really proud to say these words. Why? Because who the fuck likes to run? ME! That's who! I never thought in a million years I would call myself a runner, but here I am, training for a 7K and a 10K this year and it isn't torture. I love it. I love the runner's high. I love the sense of accomplishment it gives me. I love being able to use the time to work out my stress. I love that it gives me focus. The runner's body isn't a bad trade off either! It wouldn't be a new year without a resolution to keep my new body in shape and continue to push the limits on my running to be an even better, healthier me.
3. My FAMILY. I had a few key moments this year within my little three-person family.
- The first of which happened when my husband was out of town on his man trip. I had just quit my job of 5 years, was on a week-long work hiatus between jobs and was suddenly very overwhelmed by the love I had for my son. Don't get me wrong. I have always loved the kid. But let's face it, being a mom is stressful and hard. I realized I had been focusing too much on the "hard" parts. The bedtime battles. The illnesses. The bad reports from school. When it was just the two of us all week, rather than complain about how much "work" he was, I enjoyed every single solitary second of it just being us. I stayed longer when putting him to bed, even if I didn't have to. We played outside every night after school. We strengthened our bond. Yes, there are still tough times, but I now let the good override the bad. My resolution for 2013 is to continue to strengthen our bond and enjoy every moment, even the not so good ones.
- The second moment is the renewed strength in my marriage. I had some strange moments of clarity this holiday season that forced me to look at myself differently. My outside has changed, but it took me awhile to allow myself to change and be happy on the inside, too. I didn't even realize I was doing it, but I had been pushing my husband away for years, especially since Jackson had been born. We have been together for over a decade now, and like most couples, it was bound to reach a place where our marriage was maybe a little stagnant and boring. With this renewed sense of clarity and reason, I began to open my heart up to him again. I started focusing less on everything I thought he was doing wrong, and chose to be kinder, nicer. Thank him for all the things he is doing right. We have never been better- almost feels like the early days when we first started dating. We're having so much fun together and I love every ounce of him and our marriage. It is a resolution in 2013 to keep our marriage fun and alive.
- In a defining moment, my brother and his wife made me a Godmother to their son Connor. I am so honored that they chose me as I know they had a lot of choices. I know they chose me for many reasons, but topping the list was the opportunity to have a special relationship with my nephew since I wouldn't be able to have another. It is one of my resolutions to spend more time with him in 2013.
|My sweet boy who still likes to snuggle with his mama|
4. I started a new job!! After 5 years of basically running in place, I decided it was time to move on. If you look back on my blog posts, you will see that I was not entirely thrilled with my new world. It was a big, stressful adjustment that I wasn't sure I would ever be okay with. It is my goal to be positive about my job throughout 2013 and continue to make an impact no matter what "corporate" junk gets in the way. I am happy to report that now with a 6 month tenure under my belt:
- I no longer feel like a total idiot. I still have a lot of learning to do before I feel like I am making a true impact within my job and my team, but that kind of stuff can take years to develop. Importantly, I feel confident and secure in my future with the company.
- I no longer hate working downtown! Yes, there are days I get irritated with my commute and the people on the bus (especially the guy who fell asleep ON me one day. Not even kidding.) but, I'm sure no matter where I work, there will be annoyances. I have discovered some balance between taking the bus and driving. I have made friends with the workers at the Caribou Coffee in my building. I LOVE the Farmer's Market and am longing for spring to arrive so I can wander Nicollet Mall.
- I have made friends. This is one of the important parts of a job. Seriously. How much does it suck to go to a place day in and day out and have nobody to chat with?? Oh and I'm a first class chatterbox so this NEEDED to happen!
- I have bit of flexibility. While I can't do it all the time by any measure, I do have the ability to work from home. I am able to attend all of Jack's school functions guilt free and still be able to keep up with my work. It is wonderful and I'm so grateful for the trust and opportunity.
|1st week at new job. Cubeville.|
5. I renewed old friendships and began new ones. Most of my dearest friends I have had for close to 20 years. Holy shit. That's a long time. It's also proof that they are true friendships that have stood the test of time- including my having a baby (I'm really the only one of my friends that has a kid). I have really made it my goal to spend more time with them. My women friends are important to me! Spending time with them has made my year that much more exciting. I also met so many fantastic people through work and especially online. I feel like I have surrounded myself with positive people who lift me up and push me to the next level. People who make me look at things differently and provide me with ridiculous amounts of inspiration. Thank you friends for making my 2012 one of the best years ever! I vow to spend more time with all of you in 2013 and make a bigger and better effort to be the best friend I can be.
|Me and My Ladies Celebrating NYE last night|
|My bestie of nearly 20 years|
|My friend Angie- also a friend of nearly 20 years.|
|My sister-in-law and friend (and concert buddy)|
|Sister, Sister in Law- my friends|
As you can see, I have very few negative things to say about this year. A positive attitude changes everything, not just for yourself, but it radiates to everyone around you.
Farewell 2012! I hope 2013 will be just as amazing as you were- it certainly has a lot to live up to!