May 16, 2012

Wordful Wednesday: Becoming Me

Exhausted and half asleep, I went to my weigh in on Monday feeling confident.

Little did I know, I was down an astounding 3 pounds. Weighing in at 154, I am just 4 pounds from my goal.

WHAT?

Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think I would see the 150's again. It is even a little hilarious that I am still considered "overweight" according to the BMI charts. Someone at work actually told me I was looking too thin. I've never heard anyone say THAT to me before.  I know for many of my co-workers, the new me is very different from the obese girl they have known for the last 5 years. I just say, I am becoming me. The me I am supposed to be.

Celebrating Mother's Day: 

My sweet Godson, Connor
Snuggles With Connor



















 For the first time ever on Mother's Day, I was willing to smile for the camera as I snuggled with my baby nephew. I was wearing a pair of low rise jeans from Express (which by the way I haven't been able to wear Express jeans for over a decade and I actually got teary-eyed in the dressing room trying them on) and a black angel sleeve Gap tee with a satin ribbon around my now tiny waist. The entire day I felt like a pretty mommy. I also brought all of my too large clothes for the women in my family to sift through. An important decision I made in my journey was to give away or consign all of my clothing. I figure psychologically, if I don't have my large sizes around, I'll never be compelled to stray from my goal weight again. The best part of my Mother's Day was going to see my favorite band Daughtry at a small club in Minneapolis. I was dolled up from head to toe. Still wearing my low rise jeans but now with a sparkly tank with hair and makeup to perfection, I felt like a very hot mama. I felt confident. Sexy. Amazing. I am becoming me.
Jackson adores his cousin.

Being so close to goal, my counselor this week encouraged me to start mentally prepping for my transition out of Medifast. With an excited smile, I told her I have been prepping for transition for WEEKS. With my recent discovery of how bad soy protein is for my endo, it is important for me to wrap this diet up so I can start focusing on what "real" food I will need to start eating to control my condition. The first week on transition I will get to add in veggies that were previous not allowed on the plan, when she asked me what I plan to add in I exclaimed, "CORN ON THE COB". Yum. My husband is excited.


My mom w/ her grandbabies
It is very important for me to remember that the journey doesn't end simply because Medifast ends. I will have to continue watching my portions, making smart choices and exercising. I'm certain I will not always be perfect. I want to show everyone who made negative comments about Medifast and my weight loss that I can lose the weight and keep it off. Yes, someone told me I shouldn't bother because I will gain it all back. Nice, huh? I think it was meant to be a dig on the Medifast program, but in a lot of ways, it was a dig on me. What does that say about me? My weight gain didn't happen overnight. It happened over a DECADE. I will never let that happen again. I don't want to spend the money to lose weight again. I don't want to eat Medifast food ever again (no offense Medifast... I love you but I really miss human food).

I have become me and I'm never letting her go.



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