Blah Blah Blah surgery. Blah Blah Blah cold & illness. Blah Blah Blah medication. I have a ridiculous amount of excuses.
Yup. I started the fall season on bad note. It seems to happen to me every year around September/October. I stop caring. I throw in the towel. Fall off the wagon.
Is it because it is cold out and I need sustenance? Is Halloween candy really that awesome? Is it because I know I'm going to throw myself over the edge over the holidays so why bother? Is it because it gets dark so dang early?
I have no idea what causes my autumnal lack of motivation, but I want terribly this year to fight through it. I've been in a weight loss rut and haven't seen a loss in a couple of months (basically just bouncing back and forth between the same 3 pounds). I'm not gaining, but I'm not getting any closer to my goals by allowing myself to be complacent or allowing excuses.
I have been very conscious of my choices for the past couple weeks and it has made a difference. I lost a whopping 2.8 lbs this week and I'm desperate to keep this trend going. There are a few key things I have taken note on:
- I have to track my food. When I don't track, I cheat (or believe somehow that I've stayed within my points range).
- I have to workout.
- Running works.
I have started running again. It worked for me earlier this year. It will work for me again. I hate that I have to run on a treadmill (I'm too chicken to run in the dark), but it is better than doing nothing at all. As much as I complain and have to DRAG myself off the couch to run, when I am done I love it. I love the adrenaline rush. The feeling of accomplishment. And I ask myself, why did I ever stop?