February 01, 2011

Love Ingredients



Love. It is incredible how it changes over time.

For me, the ingredients that make up all the love in my heart is grown from my friends, family, husband, dog and especially my son.

My Elite Circle of Friends
Friend Love: I love my friends. Over the years, my circle of "besties" has gotten pretty small. I have just a handful of friends that are my go to girls. Two of them are old college roommates. We have gone through pretty much everything together not to mention extreme highs and lows in our friendships and I honestly cannot imagine my life without either of them in it. Sure, our friendships have morphed a bit throughout the past 15 years because of marriage and kids, but we've somehow managed to stick it out. A couple more friends I have met along they way in my adulthood journey and I love them just as much. They are my escape and I am grateful.


Family L-R, Aunt, Bro, SIL Sarah, Sis, Me
Family Love: I grew up in a pretty typical family: Two happily married parents, an older sister and younger brother. Even though we don't get to see each other much these days, I love them. Unconditionally. I would do anything for my family. Enter marriage into the equation (including my siblings' marriages): I acquired a whole new family to love, care for and worry about. It is incredible to me how natural and easy it is to love these people without question or reason simply because: they are family and they are forever.


Marriage: October 15, 2005
Married Love: Falling in love with my husband was like closing my eyes thinking I was diving into an empty, concrete pool yet safely landing on a giant pile of feathers. We were discussing the whirlwind courtship of his sister the other day (in a good way), and he said to me, "I absolutely knew that I was going to marry you after just 6 weeks." Here I thought he was just stringing me along for the first two years... Married love is pretty awesome. Our relationship has changed immensely over the past nine years. It has been important to remember that the "crazy" new love stuff doesn't last that long, but it is the deeper bonds of our history and dreams for our future that keep us together. Milestones such as getting married and having kids are just a few of the many pieces along the way that make our relationship and our married love so powerful. 

Me & My Girl Sadie
Pet Love: I can say without a doubt that I love my dog, Sadie. I didn't always love her this much. As a puppy, I got frustrated easily with her and just WISHED that someday she would start listening. Guess what? Out of nowhere, she did and she's perfect (weird... sounds a lot like kids huh?). I can also say without a doubt that my dog loves me back- she is the first one that I see when I come in the door to my house. She's been with us for 8 years, so yeah, she's getting up there in age. I know that we need to start considering that she maybe only has about 4-5 more years with us and I kid you not, it BREAKS my heart to even think of having to say goodbye. I am not certain how I am going to be able to function without my best dog in my life. She's been there for me through the best and worst parts of the last 8 years and I love her so much. One moment I recall is after finding out that I was having a miscarriage, I was sobbing uncontrollably and she just jumped up next to me on the couch and put her head in my lap. I don't know how she knows when things aren't right, but she does and she's always right there to offer her love. She's amazing. I know she hasn't been thrilled about giving up the spotlight to the little person, but I think she has really grown to love and be protective of her little brother over the past two and a half years.

A Mother's Love: You would think this would be the longest section of all when it comes to love yet I have a difficult time coming up with the words to describe how deeply I feel about my son. I often hear people describe their children this way and I couldn't agree more: My son is my heart out walking around. My heart just swells when I think of him. I think of his crazy arrival into the world and even though it shook us all to the core, I think it taught us the most important lesson in parenting: nothing ever goes as planned. My little boy is my everything and I would die for him. I have loved watching him grow into such a smart and loving person over the past 2.5 years and after dealing with fertility issues, I am still blown away that he is here and he is mine. He's the most amazing, frustrating and hilarious person I have ever known. You would think if you LOVE someone this much, it would be easy to find the words to describe it, but I just can't. It just is.
How Fast They Grow...

In the spirit of Valentine's Day, what is love to you? 


1 comment:

  1. My wife and I are childless so we never had the love of a child you describe. I know it to be an amazing thing simply because everyone with children tends to say pretty the same things about how awesome the experience is. On the other hand, I do have a marvelous marriage I wouldn’t swap with anyone’s. I write quite a bit about love myself from time to time, but it is a difficult thing to completely describe. I just know that my wife makes me happier than I ever dared dream I ever would be, and that she feels the same way about me. After all these years together (34), it often feels like one mind in two bodies. And one heart.

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