July 17, 2009

Change

My hubby makes these silly pictures of Jack on his iPhone. Hilarious. This was the perfect facial expression for this poster!!! 

I know I haven't been a great blogger lately. Work is busy. Jack is busy. It is hard for me to find the 5 minutes it requires to throw down a decent blog post.

Now, when I talk about change, I'm not talking about Obama's idea of change here. Just change in general. I'm one of those people who prefers to keep things status quo. While I embrace new ideas and try to come up with a few of my own, I find that big changes are hard for me to deal with. We have new leadership at my office and I have found it very hard to jump on board with the ideas that are being proposed. It is a complete 360 degree switch from how we've conducted our Marketing affairs in the past as well as I'll admit there is a little fear that the way things are going, my job might simply not be necessary anymore. I guess it isn't scary to me in the sense that if I lose my job, we'll foreclose on our home or fall into massive debt but scary in that I have been REALLY happy at my job and I would hate to lose it and have to start from square one again. I have toyed with the idea of becoming a SAHM (stay at home mom), but the hard-working career woman side of me always prevails. That and the idea that I'm not remotely as smart as Jack's teachers at his school and he won't turn out half as brilliant if he's at home with me. Despite the ridiculous politics that seem to be plaguing my company at this time, I actually do enjoy working and especially what I do. I have always felt very empowered in my job and lately have seen much of that slip away. I'm doing my best to remain positive and just let the new guy do his thing and just let whatever will be, be.

Another area that is giving me a lot of change- JACK!! He's insane. He's all over the place. He's vocal. He's funny. He's... amazing. The older he gets, the more my heart aches with love. The way he looks at me like he actually KNOWS me now, how he cries when I have to say goodbye in the morning and rocking him to sleep at night I just stare in wonder. I am very protective of my little guy. I just don't know what I would do if anything ever happened to him and I do not take a single second for granted. Nothing else matters in this world little angel except for you!

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