March 23, 2007

Could It Be????

Firstly, I must discuss the downs of business travel. I cannot even begin to explain how much pity I feel for people who travel just about every week. There is nothing glamorous, fun, or exciting about bouncing around from state to state and plane to plane. I didn't sleep for 3 days. Literally. No sleep. It has been two days since my return from my latest trip and I am still absolutely exhausted. Despite two solid nights of sleep I feel like I just need more and more. While I am grateful for the opportunity to travel with these high brow executives, it is really night the life for me.

So, I'm tired. That much I've made clear. Am I tired though because... I might be pregnant? Or am I just tired? I don't know why this month feels different. I just have a feeling about it. I mean that more literally than you might think. On cycle day 5, I had a dramatic drop in temperature. I had initially chalked it up to lack of sleep, but it went right back up the next day. Could it be the mythical implantation dip? Ever since the "dip" I've had a bit of cramping, a butterly fluttery feeling in my tummy, and of course the fatigue has increased exponentially. I hate reading into these symptoms in fear of simply being wrong or having PMS, but the other part of me is saying this is different.

Tomorrow, I get to hang out with my sister and baby nephew, Miles. Admittedly, I have not seen them sort of on purpose. It's hard to be around babies and families when you're infertile. Even when they are your own family. My sister is to be married soon, and I need to just let go of all the negativity and be a good sister and a good auntie. I have no reason to be hostile to them- it is not their fault that we are unable to procreate. I'm looking forward to my Miles time!

Stay tuned for further developments!

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